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| So this is it, the final curtain call.
Our time here is over. I wish it was for good..
This is goodbye, the final wave of hand. I wish I had the nerve to say that I'm never coming back.
It was a fight (for goodness sake).
I can't believe I cried for so many nights.
But I hope you know I try; hope you know I try, to become a better person.
I hope you know I never meant to hurt you, never meant to make you cry.
Hope you know I try to become a better person but with you in my life, I don't think I ever can.
The roadway is waiting and I'm stuck debating: if I ever want to see you again, cuz I've grown numb.
This city means nothing without the friendship we used to have.
...I never knew.....I never thought that I loved you harder than I thought I did.
I don't care if you're lost or you're scared or you never ever want to be friends. You hung me out to dry.
If this is a test, I'm losing my shit. Would it kill you to care as much as I did?
If this is a test, I'm wasting my breath.
You're a stranger I know well, and not at all..
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| been sitting, thinking about you and I and wondering why we're not getting along.
so frustrated because i dont know what the situation is...we don't talk no more and it feels better when I'm alone.
sometimes I feel like there's no getting through you, like you don't appreciate all that I do.
YOU gotta show me that you want me to stay, please don't turn and walk away.
we're slowly falling out, I don't know what to do.
How did we end up here this way? What are we gonna do?
We're tripping on silly things; Hey I need you to meet me halfway...if you want me to be with you...
I remember when I'd be with my friends, you checked on me and made time to call...
but how things have changed, now I don't hear from you at all.
don't let your pride get in the way for something we worked so hard..please don't just throw it away.
..but knowing you, you dont care.
and with this last effort of trying to make you see...I'm giving up.
some have said that giving up doesn't mean ur weak, giving up means ur strong enough to let go.
haha, i dont usually give up on anything or ANYONE (for that matter) but in this case, im getting tired with every single waking moment thinking about this shiet (YOU)..so I give up.
I've tried so hard, for the past couple of days/weeks to please you, to try and put things back to normal...
but you...i dont know what's wrong with you, but it seems pretty impossible to please u..
I feel like there's no getting through to you, like you dont appreciate all that I do.
you get mad at me for no apparent reason, everytime we talk to each other on the phone, it sounds like you're super angry/frustrated at me...and the only time you've been nice to me was when I did you a favor...(you didnt even say thank you for that favor i did for you.)
I'm done being your bitch.
some people will work things out, while some just don't know how to change.
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| ur staring at me, I'm sitting wondering what ur thinking
nobody's talking, cause' talking just turns into screaming
and now yes I'm yelling over u, ur yelling over me,
all that that means is neither of us are listening,
and what's even worse, we don't even remember why we're fighting
It's all for nothing, fighting for nothing, crying for nothing...
When we won't let it go for nothing, come back for nothing, this should be nothing...
I know sometimes it's gonna rain, but can we make up now? cause' I can't sleep through the pain.
I don't want to go to bed, mad at you and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me.
hey we're fighting this war when both of us are losing (what happened to working it out?)
We fall into this place where you ain't backing down, and I ain't backing down.
so what the hell do we do now?
well if u wanted honesty, thats all u had to say. i never want to let u down or have u go...
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| doesnt it suck that money makes the world go round?
i kno that it says in the bible to not store riches of this world cuz all of these things will soon fade away...but, its so hard when everywhere u look, money,clothes,cars,gadgets are getting invented and is emphasized too much in the media and we all want it.
it sucks too if ur broke and u want something so bad and deep inside u kno its useless anyway.
u can live w/out it yet you just GOTTA HAVE IT.
instead of saving up, u spend it...
*sighh..temptations all around.
maybe next time, i should just leave all the money i have in one account and ask someone to not give me the password for it so i cant access it. (HAHA!)
ohh i need self-control...
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cant believe this is happening to me.
just gimme a moment to catch up, i dnt kno what happened but u just knocked off the ground.
what can i say? im infatuated, i dont kno how i could let this happen.
one moment im just brushing u off my shoulder, the next thing i kno, im fallin for u...(lemme rephrase that, i hate saying that im falling for someone), im jst having this unexplained feelings for u.
i hate it, i dont like it. we're only supposed to be friends.
just gimme a moment so i can return back to normal.
ughh, why do i always fall for my friends.?..
whatever it is, i hate it. why would i like u anyway?
lols, not saying ur not likeable or anything. its jst that, i cant.
maybe time away aint such a bad thing...i think that's what im needing.
ima stay away from u but obviously u dnt kno this. so when u do notice...im sorry. i jst need sometime to be myself again.
from now on, limited communication...hey i think its for the best...
u mean well, but u make this hard on me.
im restless, and i keep trembling into this feeling that's overwhelming me and the thing im most fearful is: i finally stopped.....i finally stopped making sense.
i cant stop talking to myself, im a desperate cry for help.
For the record, when I'm with you, things are looking better.
For once everything is brighter than the darkness before.
u suck, im gna stop talking to u, bye now.
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